Friday, February 7, 2014

Retreat has started!!

Finally arrived and so sweet to be out of the Polar Vortex..will be keeping a blog of the teachings and to share some sweet stories..coming together on these retreats opens the door for wonderful life experiences where the joy of our practice is shared with the beauty of community. We are also excited to be serving the orphanage in Los Ninos.. Arrived in Antigua and here are some pictures of our lovely hotel..Meson Panza Verde!

















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Location:La Antigua Guatemala,Guatemala

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

My gratitude list this Thanks Giving

Passion is the flame of love that lights the way of my soul. I am so grateful to have passion direct my course..and shine the way forward. So many times in life I could have settled into other people's direction and course of safety for me, but I am so grateful for some unknown courage that would surge through my blood and carry me into uncertain territories of what my true Self was calling me to live. To love fully all of myself..not just the pieces I wanted to present to the outer world..not just the personas that others would see, but to embrace the inner "green Goo" of my learned fears and the side effects of shame and guilt for living what I thought was not good enough. I am so blessed to be living my passions and my gut knowing that life is beautiful and so short..that every breath is precious and a gift from the link of the Source..I am so grateful for my dear companions on this journey of life, for my family that somehow accepts their "crazy" leader who is continuing to use the invisible sword that cuts through the haze of fog and confusion that we all live in at times..clarity of the mind is an ongoing practice and at times words cannot explain the faith that arises out of the unseen light of Grace.. I am so thankful for the hard times, the messy soul work of living..the challenges of life have given more blessings seen only through the "rear view mirror". Today, I sit in this sweet space and miss my mommy..I miss all those sweet times with my dear friends that no longer exist in the physical body..and I so miss the sound of their laughter and the touch of their great strong vibrant hugs...but I know I can go out today and laugh and cry and shout and say..I love life. The whole gusto of it all..not just the times of ease but the times the boat rocked and rolled and tossed me into the depths of deep pain..I said YES to life and thank you God for the courage to live it!! Happy Thanks Giving everyday..every breath!!
Blessings to all the great souls that have shared the wisdom of their journey..my great teachers and the path of yoga. May I continue to remove those obstacles of my mind and embrace this flame in my heart..may it shine.
Lets keep passion alive and be fearless warriors of loving!!
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Sunday, November 10, 2013

The importance of having a meditation practice

I have always held the firm belief that the greatest gift we can give someone is the quality of our attention. The old expression, "look at me when you speak" is not just a need to listen but a profound desire to "be seen" by someone. I now know that the greatest gift I can give myself is that same attention. To look inward and to be seen by the True Source of my light. To take the quality of my attention inward and nourish the space inside. My multi tasking world is loosing the ability to hold that focus of pure attention and with it the calming effect of mindfulness . Living today in a scattered mindless world..often creates the loneliness of isolation and the inability to actually enjoy our own company and to sit in the awareness of those thoughts and to then have the freedom of discernment in choosing to let them go.
This is why I have to meditate..no longer can I feel the peace,stability, and calming presence in the outer hectic world of multi tasking..I have to make the time, create the space in my life for reflection that arises out of a steady mind, a one pointed mind that is cultivated from the consistent effort of my meditation practice. In order for me to see clearly and truly offer my attention to others, I have to look inward and give attention to that essence of being.
Other wise my over active mind starts moving too quickly and instead of listening I am hearing my own thoughts and projecting my own words..I often wonder, do I ever really listen with my ears? Do I ever see with my eyes? What thought of bias is blocking me from the clarity of feeling with true understanding and compassion? Without my daily practice, am I truly present? Am I ever giving that which is most precious..my utmost open and clear Self? If I desire to live in loving kindness and have respect for others who might see differently from me, I have to first clear and remove the biases of my learned mind and hopefully perceive the moment with an open mind. The quality of that moment must be felt and experienced. Too often we are not even present to that moment. The mind is too busy rushing to its next endeavor, the thoughts spinning into anxious future or just too tired to respond at all. To actually breathe into the moment and feel the awareness of my subtle body brings me back into the aliveness of the present. I can slow time down, I can taste the feeling and I can witness how another might be feeling..I always say," I hear your words, but I am listening to your thoughts so I can feel your heart.." This takes practice of sutra 11-33."Vitarka-bandane pratipaksa-bhavanam", Patanjali reminds us to step out of reactive mind and see behind someone else's eyes..to place our attention into the opposite; to see and feel through another's view..when something or someone is causing me agitation, instead of resisting, the teachings offer me the tool of shifting perspective and observe that perhaps someone is seeing through their own bias of their learned story and memory. For me to witness and observe another with true attention and to let go of quick judgement on my thoughts, allows me opportunity in practicing my yoga, cultivating a willingness to see another way.
Krishnamachary would say, "you know your yoga is working when your relationships are improving". For me, its to take life less personally, to enjoy the diversity of viewpoint as a way to grow, to nourish right action from the true listening of the heart..to find peace and serenity in being present. This is why I meditate, and why I feel the most important limbs of yoga to be dharana, dhyana, samadhi. To be able to experince the quality of my attention and to be seen by the Great Source of Presence. In a scattered world, we need this for the Grace of humanity. Without sounding preachy or righteous, I just long for connection as I know we all do!! To taste all of life and be aware of it in others is the gift of Love.
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Location:Sunday morning in the quiet..

Monday, November 4, 2013

Why Practice Yoga in the Early Morning

Hello Dear Ones! It's Marina today.

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Did you know that traditionally yoga and meditation are practiced between 3:00 am and 6 am? Why get up so early for yogic practices? According to yogic tradition this time is Sattvic (pure), also known as Brahmamuhurtha (auspicious, Divine) time of the day. It is peaceful, the world is quiet, the air is charged with negative ions, our minds are not yet busy, our stomachs are empty and our bodies are not hungry. This is the time to feel the sacredness and depth of the teachings and techniques.
          
I love offering 6:30 am classes, because this is my opportunity to teach you the most authentic form and practices of yoga as I know it. Some of the practices that I offer here are only unique to these classes, like tratak (candle light gazing), agni sara and nauli (to improve and fire up your metabolism), bandhas (to activate, regulate and balance out energy flows), chanting and meditation (to calm and clear the mind).
            
Here are a couple of reflections from the practitioners who do make an effort to get up and practice this early in the day:

"Early morning yoga gives me the opportunity to be grateful for the gift of a new day.  Morning is truly an auspicious time to practice.  The word "auspicious" has it's origin in Latin ... coming from a "divination by observing the flight of birds" - a good omen.  Now it refers to a favorable situation of set of conditions; something likely to bring success.  This is true for me.  If I practice early in the morning, none of the clutter can get in the way of my good intentions.  Morning practice brings success, sets the tone for my whole day.  I feel prepared, ready to face what may come ... physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually." – Cosette

"My morning class with you is simply amazing how great I feel afterward and I make better decisions regarding, work, personal matters, I communicate better at work place. My mind is much more under control and peaceful. That is why I like my morning practice and your class. Plus, you also, teach pranayamas, cleansing techniques, meditation, which I don't see at any other classes, that is one more reason to come to your class that is strongly based on spirituality, becoming better person through faithful yoga practice."  – Kusum

Whenever you cannot make it to early classes or in between the sessions start your day with Sun Salutations or Tibetan Rites, which are designed to open your physical body, deepen your breath and also fill you up with energy. Devote 5 min to Kapalabhati breathing to empty mental cup and 5-10 min to quiet meditation to connect with inner stillness. And then go out there and be at your absolute best while offering the gift of you. As always I love hearing from you and learning about your experiences pertaining to practice and personal growth.

I teach Vinyasa Flow on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 6:30-7:45 am.  Make an effort to get up and practice this early in the day with me.

With lots of love and gratitude,
Marina



Tratak
Means to look or to gaze: it is practiced early in the morning or late at night in the dark to clear the tear ducts, strengthen eyesight, improve concentration and to bring the mind into one-pointedness and stillness. This practice activates ajna chakra, which leads to a heightened sense of intuition and inner guidance.

Sit in a meditative pose comfortably with your spine straight in front of a candle that is placed at the level of your eyes. Develop a steady gaze in the middle of the flame where the dark part of the flame meets the light part. Keep your gaze steady but relaxed to the point of no blinking. When the eyes tear, close them, relax and resume the gaze to experience steadiness of the gaze and the mind. Gradually build your tratak practice up to 5 min at a time and use it before meditating on ajna chakra.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

My week with Pandiji

It has begun.. My new teacher has invited me on what I know is a new pathway of study. Only going deeper into what I know as my true Self..my heart. I have longed for a long time to be reminded that the intellect can only go so far. The only way to experience the incredible gift of one 's illuminated soul is through the space of the heart. And I found a joyous soul to remind me.

Having completed my six year commitment to be a certified yoga therapist, I returned to my teaching with vast wealth of information. It has taken a full year to process, digest, assimilate and be able to finally feel ready to just live it. It was a much bigger undertaking of effort and commitment than I ever could have imagine and it left me exhausted and depleted when the huge scandal unfolded while I was in India. As many might know, my teacher, T.K. Deskichar's son, Kausthaub, left the KYM because of horrible emotional and sexual abuse allegations. I was in India witnessing most of the upheaval and so I can speak from direct perspective. I had known for years that he was moving further away from an authentic light and I would not collude in his devious need for control. Because of that, I was often punished by being ignored, and shamed with rudeness. I left India, having honored my agreement yet empty and sad that the beauty of my Faith and my huge effort was never appreciated. I am forever grateful for the vast knowledge of this linage and proud of my accomplished work. But my heart had experienced deep betrayal and was grieving.

In March, my dear friend and teacher, Rod Stryker shared with me that I should meet Pandit, the Dir. of the Himalayan Institute and that he would request a meeting for me. Flash forward to June..and for the first time in six years, Pandit was coming to Naperville to visit all of the students that he has touched. How sweet to think I arrived in Naperville in 1995 and it was my first home in the Mid West!! Now, I would finally meet this lovely man in my own neighborhood! What a gift to share a five hour India meal with all his devoted students and to be suddenly included in this loving group. After sitting privately with him, and sharing my deep grief of the past few years, he invited me to partake in this auspicious week of teachings in the deeper wisdom of Tantric study.
So now, I sit trying to put together this sequence of events and digest the awe of my state of being. I am so blessed..and appreciate of all the events that have led to this moment of being here NOW.
I asked to get back to the joy, the wonder, the sweetness of the heart. I have all the information but I want to sing the heart's music of what I know is just love. I want to re-connect to the laughter, the desire of excitement, passion..all the juice that I dance to and share with my huge force of enthusiasm. I know this is my gift and I need to re-nourish the spark that lights up my true illuminated Self.

Always the gift is in sharing these brilliant tools with my students. I get excited knowing that through the heart we heal more, love more, and have more joy in our daily lives. The gateway is found through the direction of the breath..nourishing the organic shakti that rides on the breath and directing the sensation of this current into the vast space of the mind. thus freeing it from angst, tension, doubt, worry and profound grief. To just ride the flow of peace and to be in the presence of one's divine light. I have touched, tasted and now remember that this is my yoga!! The memory has been restored and how delicious that it is all so simple!! Just relax into the letting go...the only way is just fall into the practice and embrace the beauty that language cannot describe!! Love.
Turning our senses to beauty and the glorious nature of creation, provides a nourishing environment for our "dream seeds" to thrive. Just for today, open your gaze and let yourself be amazed. At the infinite ways love is expressed in the world. Know this is a simple reflection of the beauty you are and always will BE.

I will share on my next blog the incredible one on one meeting I had with Pandiji and the gift he gave me.

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Friday, July 19, 2013

Pausing for reflection..before the doorway..

Life moves forward..life is movement and just like the walkway at the airport..one better be prepared to move quickly or be pushed aside by impatient travelers. Once on the walkway one can stand to the side and allow the movement to take you on the forward ride..one could struggle to turn around and go backward..but to accept the ride is to let go of resistance. Today, I want to move slowly and linger in the taste of memory as life moves forward. My mom got off the walkway of life and time has a habit of moving but my heart wants to pause and hit rewind on the remote..Today, I am returning to my parents house, a home they built together in their 61 years of marriage. A life filled with a of collection of great stuff., My mother was never a hoarder, she was however the proud record keeper of my life. My history,my story is in that home which tomorrow I will start dismantling and packing up the memories as we move my dad out. Mom saved everything. In all her dresser drawers, she saved the moments of my life. Since I spent so many years as the gypsy moth fluttering from place to place, brilliant in letting go and traveling light. But my sweet mother held together the stable roots of my existence by being the home base of my soul. I could land into her warm and comforting arms and she would also say, "Laura Jane, ( in that rich southern drawl), you can always come home to rest". And that is what I did. Every time, I needed to withdraw from the hectic "Vata" pace of my "doing" mind, I would fall into the comfort of my parents haven in the woods of Conn. There I was only "daughter", I could dance into the rhythm of my heart and listen to the comfort of just being. I am grieving today; life moves forward and must move on. Dad is going into his new home, an assisted living facility, and the moving company will arrive and take the needed furniture..but what to do with all the sweet cards, momentous pictures, books with underlined pencil marks highlighting what my mother felt important..and what to do with my soul that is loosing the only childhood roots that keep me tied to the East Coast? Sweet rich memories that I am forever grateful to have lived!
I wrote that post last Dec. and never mailed it..this past June, we sold the house. Today, some of those lasting treasures are in my own home ..my daughter might want them one day, but I doubt it, since value changes with attachment..for me, they are a daily reminder of my gentle mom saying to me.."slow down, Laura Jane, life is moving too fast..enjoy the beauty." Things are just things..but we give meaning to them..I am forever blessed to hold only the appreciation..the gripping does not serve..and the gift of letting go is to welcome my new beginning!! A new doorway is being presented and I am entering NOW. I will be sharing in future posts this week.
Blessings and be gentle with your hearts for life is always moving us forward. And letting go is tough work for the mind! We must relax more, release the grip and just keep the hearts open!

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Location:Airport..on the walkway of life

Monday, November 5, 2012

Sitting in darkness, igniting the inner flame

Life always presents such amazing opportunity to witness the humble grace of mother nature. Last year, to the day, I sat in Conn. in vigil as I watched my sweet mother fight for her breath. We lost all power, yes, no lights,water,heat,electric grid gone with the freak storm storm that blew through the entire state. For eight days, I kept a fire burning for warmth,carried buckets of water from an outdoor pool to flush toilets and wash, rallied my mom's spirit with pioneer stories and kept my mind focused on my blessing to be there. I was with her during these last days of life. Today, I am approaching the anniversary of her death,Nov.15th. and Conn.is again in darkness. The entire coast of the Long Island Sound is experiencing the sense of loss,confusion,fear,grief and profound surrender of normalcy..all the emotions that I know so well. My heart is reliving every moment.
I know this storm has shook the world and yet, my thoughts do not have to go into the darkness. I know that I am able to choose my thought today which can bring me out of the confusion of all those emotions. I can choose to use my breath to calm my mind and actually bring my thoughts to a still place. I can choose to feel peaceful is the moment. Gather some clarity and know the hearts can pull together. I remember how the neighbors came by with food, friends found a generator so my mother could have heat..I remember the love of this community that helped lift my spirit back and give me strength to care for my mom. Today, this same spirit resides in all of us. We are all effected by the enormous loss of people's lives and the tragedy of loosing all we hold dear to our hearts. The human spirit is huge. I want to join in offering a way to help ease the pain of so many souls lost in their immense need to get back to some balance. Balance is a word that our world is struggling with today. Where is the balance in our lives that are witnessing a County so divided and split in ideology and belief.? There must be a way to restore an inner balance so we can see clearer and feel the blessing that life is presenting even the the mist of despair. I know that last year, as hard as it was to sit in the sadness of witnessing death approaching, to be holding vigil to her every breath..I was more alive, more focused, more of purpose to maintain a steady mind for the love that was constantine sustaining me. That goodness for the tools of yoga!! Today, this same passion, this inner light is on more than ever..and so let us come together and share and serve as a yoga community. YAF will be hosting community classes every Sun. Starting this Nov. 11th, Veterans Day, 3:00-4:00! Come, and donate what you can..but come and bring your spirit, your desire, your love and let us keep the lights on in our hearts.. We can help just with our pure intention. I will be working with families and friends on the East Coast to find the right places to donate the funds..we just have to start!
Life is a song..sing it
Life is a game..play it
Life is a challenge..meet it
Life is a dream..realize it
Life is a sacrifice..offer it
Life is LOVE..enjoy it!


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Location:Downers grove